His Return to God.....

There he was.... trapped in strips and bits of sin. His shirt  had indulged in the taste of lust, his shoes had walked in the path he never thought he would walk... His pants were torn by the desires that clashed with his identity. He sat down and his mind took him back to that day.... that day when he was so fired up for God, it took him to that day when he had decided that the only woman he will look at will be his wife..... so what went wrong?

As he reflected and wrestled with his emotions , he found himself in that boat....in the boat he should not have been on. His eyes were enticed by a woman whose words were so poetic that her pursuing a medical profession seemed insane. It took him back to the first, second ,third and etc times his heart got broken.. It took him back to the days he started feeling burdened by what brought joy to his life (The will of God)......

He cried and felt ashamed. voices spoke from every angle.... the softest one said to him.... "Come near to me, i will heal you and help you". The louder voice said "get up, forget about your heartbreak and numb every emotion". he looked at the two and the most "realistic" one seemed easier to follow.... i mean why believe in the unseen when he could simply move on and forget it ever happened?

His hands found themselves embracing the energy lust seemed to be luring him on with, his hands held the very woman that somehow kept stabbing his heart... His eyes fixed themselves on this woman and forgot about the very God that loved him before the world knew him.
Looking at it, it looked like a young man who was blinded by love but as i looked deeper ,i realized that there is more to it.

With his pen he started writing down what he felt and these are a few words that escaped from his mind and laid down on his paper.

1. I am heartbroken
2. I have fear to love again
3. I have insecurities. Which woman will love me? i am not as handsome as "Quinton"
4. My confidence has been crashed
5. My relationship with God is...... lets say i messed up big time
6. I have trust issues.
7. I am just hurt! i want the pain to go away.


Looking at the list, one would say it was okay for him to go back to the woman he got on that boat with but why do we keep going back to the places got saved us from? why do we keep going back to where we are broken?

He didn't know what she was capable of when he saw her right? not really. When his eyes came across her, his smile said i want her but that little voice said, NO....She is not the woman for you.That still voice that spoke was the Holy spirit which plays a huge role in the life of a christian.

Often we find ourselves in situations where we decide to travel without God. We choose routes we know are not in line with who we are but that "excitement" we feel somehow shuts out the voice that knows best... Gods voice.

The sad reality is that when we have fallen , we are afraid to go back to the Father and rather swim in that problem... i mean if you were disobedient why go back?
The prodigal son went back to his father and this was God saying , i know you messed up but my grace is sufficient. Come back to me and i will fill you up again.

The thing is, you cant do it on your own. You need to go back to the Man that knitted every part of you in your mothers womb, so that He can recreate you and mend your heart. Going back to the place of captivity will only break you even more and make you feel like you are not worthy of Gods forgiveness, love, blessings and Time.  The insecurities, the pain and hurt will leave you but it wont happen over night....When God created the earth, it did not take a second so don't expect that quick fix but trust God in the process.

Your insecurities and low self esteem need God Himself! How and why? Well You have been made in His image and through Him, you will know your identity and know who you really are.. A wise man once said "You cant reflect what you do not behold" and this truth is what we need to grasp, digest and understand. You are peculiar, holy, more than a conqueror, loved and Simply out of this world! Literally.

It is going back to God with our little pieces and allowing Him to mend us that we become restored.
It is allowing God to speak to our hearts and lives that we fear not.
It is being in His presence that all chains are broken.
It is being in His presence that we remain in His presence.
It is knowing God that we are able to love again and not allow past hurts to dictate to us how our future love relationships will be.

This young man had forgotten his identity in the midst of trouble and being broken but we thank God that he is a God of second chances, restoration and revival. I trust the young man will be revived and so will you.
 


Thank you for reading
<3 kamo

listen to shana wilson- Give me you.     Its worth listening to.
 May God revive us

A relationship with God!

 As i was having supper the other day, i started thinking about the relationships i have with my friends. I started thinking about how good or bad they are and if we spoke or opened up to each other enough to actually call what we have a relationship.

I normally like defining terms before i go deeper into them just to make sure we are all on the same page. A lot of people have different definitions of what relationships are but i will just try keep it short. A relationship is the way in which two or more people or things are connected, or the state of being connected. From this definition we can draw that for a relationship to occur, there needs to be a connection. This connection is what gives birth to intimacy which simply means to be close to someone.

What i realised about some of my friends is that:

v  We are open to each other

v  We allow ourselves to be vulnerable

v  We Depend on each other

v  We Share things

v  We give

v  We are always there for each other. Through good and bad times

v  We encourage each other

v  We pray together and study together

v  We show  a level of commitment to our friendship

There are so many things i have come across pertaining my friendships and luckily for me, the above mentioned have kept us together as friends. An intimate relationship in which we know  and love each other , is precious, fulfilling and it is a gift from God. It is God giving a slice of Himself to us.

So why not have the whole cake as well?

I have come to realise that for a relationship to work , it requires two people to make it work. For our relationship with God to really grow in intimacy it requires pretty much what we give into our friendships, just on a deeper level.

• .        We need to be open with God

It is great to know that we are loved by God. Its great to acknowledge the fact that before the world knew us, He knew us. He preciously knitted us in our mothers wombs and ensured that a treasure like you and i can glow right before everyone.  This is love right?

Have you ever lived with someone you are not open with? Someone you hardly talk to? It is not so great, there are too many awkward moments and being with that person is not that fun. We need to get to a level where we understand that God is our father and like He said, He will never leave nor forsake us. WE need to be transparent with Him. By doing this ,not only do we lift the burden off our shoulders but we also create a platform of communication where we can hear Him speak directly into our lives and situations.  Instead of running to the phone, run to the throne. You will get more peace there. Having an intimate relationship with God requires us to put feelings and experiences into words .  

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•   e  We need to depend on God and allow Him to be in control

I have realised that as much as we want to be the ones behind the wheel, we need to actually allow God to be in control. He is the manufacturer of the car (you) so He definitely knows how to take you to where you need to be  at the right time. Allowing someone to be in control involves you depending on them and for you to do so, it requires you to trust that person. Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding:in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight”. I am sure you now see that Trusting in the Lord = Your paths being straight.

• .        We need to be able to Share with God.

This is pretty much the same as being open with God. We need to be vulnerable and open with Him. We need to give Him the deepest parts of who we are- Our affections, our hopes, our fears, our dreams and our secrets. To be able to share our inner world with God is really rewarding and it results in growth. It allows Him to remind us that we have not been given the spirit of fear, It allows Him to help us overcome, it allows Him to show us who we really are because when our inner world is not in sync with who we really are, it messes up with our true image. Just like pouring flavoured water into a still water bottle, it somehow makes one think that the water being contained has no flavour.

• .        We need to allow God to be there for us

I remember last year, i had to repeat a module. I wanted to hide myself from the face of the earth because i had failed and disappointed those who believed in me. I cried a lot until i stood up and told myself “You are a woman of courage, a conqueror and a victor in Christ. Get up and draw strength from God”. These sounded like mere words but they went a long way. God strengthened me and gave me the wisdom and pwer to throw that stone at Goliath without missing.  In our weaknesses we need to allow Him to strengthen us , in our addictions we need Him to help us overcome, In our insecurities, we need Him to bring about reassurance and remind us of who we are. Having fallen once should not push you away from God but should bring you closer. God is there for you and i, we just need to allow Him to take His position and do so.

• .       We need to pray and read the Word

Praying functions just like an umbilical cord. The same way it connects the mother and child, is the way it connects us and God. What does an umbilical cord do you may be asking, in the placenta, oxygen and nutrients from the mothers bloodstream pass into the babys bloodstream through the umbilical cord.  Not only does prayer connect you to God but it also provides nutrition to our being and keeps us strong. Prayer creates a personal experience with God and to make this experience more fruitful, we need to read the word. The very way the manual to a new phone, allows you to explore more about the phone, is the same way the word works.  You enjoy it and get to know God and yourself better.     

• .        We need to show commitment

A relationship requires commitment from two people, it requires both parties to give time to each other and it requires both parties to learn to prioritise.  We need to be committed to the things of God. We need to be willing to give our time to God.  We need to be willing to be of service and to learn to serve God wholeheartedly. The truth is, God is the one who holds true life and giving our lives to Him , enables us to find the true life.  Commitment is crucial and trust me, God proved His commitment the moment He gave His only begotten son to die for our sins.  Joshua Harris wrote “The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment"

Let us move from  hearing about God to knowing God personally. The deepest and most meaningful of intimate relationships is the one between 

THE BEST FRAGRANCE TO HAVE ON ,COMBINED WITH LOVE IS YOUR CHARACTER!

I was in a room full of people, some looked young and oh well some were pseudo old (not really old but appeared that way).

Everyone was having fun. There was a group of ladies by the corner, sipping on tea and gossiping away like they were going to be paid for it and on the other side of the room  was a group of guys.... one of them was really quiet and all i could hear was "No i think the new BMW is better than that". It was very typical of them because a lot of men seem to love cars.  The room was so busy and everyone was minding their own business well UNTIL.......

a very beautiful lady in heels walked in, don't get me wrong all the ladies in the room were gorgeous but this one......She had this odour that simply forced itself into our nose. It violently grabbed our attention and did not want to let us go.

We all looked at her and you could see she was starting to feel uncomfortable and she tried to trick us by  depicting a Mona Lisa smile that we could all see was not genuine! 

yep!! she got that much attention because she simply SMELLED GOOD! her cologne PROVOKED PEOPLES SENSES including mine!

what is it that i love about some Fragrances?

They speak

• Luxury
• warmth
• reassurance
• freshness
• give the impression that you are clean
• strength (in terms of the smell and lasting effect)

There is something that we all have that pretty much works like the cologne she had on and that is CHARACTER.

Character is the combination of mental characteristics and behavior that distinguishes a person.

We all have this but unfortunately our characters can never be the same, in the same sense that we use different fragrances to smell different. Its very important that we focus on building our characters because they speak for us... they can speak luxury/not, they can create warmth where you are/ create a cold environment, they can bring out reassurance that you are confident and spray your strengths wherever you are, they can bring about positivity (freshness)/ radiate negativity (contaminating others), they can give us an impression or idea about how you think and carry yourself , they can determine how you will provoke our senses and the type of lasting effect you will leave with us and lastly  they can inform us about how strongor weak your character is.

Things like self love and building your self-esteem are essential but bringing restoration and growth in your character is very important.

Your character will determine how you handle storms when they come your way, it will determine how you treat different relationships, it will determine what you do after having failed at something, it will determine how you will persevere,it will determine how you can endure and it will determine how you behave after God has blessed you....BASICALLY.... Your character is the boat you need to be on in order to move from one area to another (be it from bad to good, from having nothing to having something) and in order to move from one level to another.

SO.......... as much as we want to spend time filtering our pictures, finding the perfect dress/suit and finding the perfect spouse....let us sharpen our character.  

Like sharpening a pencil, the process might hurt a little(here and there) but let us do so anyway because the results are what matter the most.

Check-list

1. self love    - CHECK!

2. loving and caring about others  - CHECK

.3. CHARACTER- CHECK CHECK!!

  

thank you for reading 

kamogelo <3

A lil bit of Winter indulgence

WINTER WINTER WINTER!!!

i am personally not a fan of winter. It is cold, forces one to dress up ( a lot of clothes on) and it comes with a lot of colds and flu. As a student it is not my favourite season because it makes me a bit lazy and that is no exception since i have not yet graduated.

The following are a few outfits i think would be great for winter. I am a huge lover of heels which is why most outfits are heel orientated. I hope you will find something you love


 This look is by Funeka who is the owner and DV designer. It is very classy and the colours are good together haha black and white will always be.  The outfit looks warm so not only will you look gorgeous but you will be warm too.

Something elegant and sporty! (kefi styles)

white is the new black!! the heels and top are great together. The bag is that loner that stands out. i love this look(amanda du pont)

these colours are great for winter!! The heels go very well with the fur jacket and ofcourse the pants and the hair are a perfect match. speak of the "perfect pair"(DV- its not a secret)

Another outfit that speaks volumes. i love the way she co-ordinated the colours and the jewelry. Its not tooo much of it. Its enough !!! (DV- Its not a secret)

This look is quiet and yet hard to miss(on the left). The jeans and the way she made dark bold colours come together so well is what i love most about this look. I love the shoes as well.....ofcourse its not heels this time(Kefi styles)

The view is amazing

I normally sit in my room and start seeing a glimpse of the future. I believe that when you have a big vision, you are challenged to work harder and smarter. Houses are beautiful and every Queen deserves to have a view as beautiful as this..... even better

Thank you for reading
<3 kamogelo

My love for Heels

i fell inlove with these heels the moment i set my eyes on them... they are black, bold and definitely are a must have<3

Gods love.... amazing

I woke up this morning with so much to share in my heart but i wanted to share with you something that is very important.
There was a girl who was in need of a roommate and God CHOSE to stay in her room amongst many that were there. The girl would wake up in the morning and not greet/talk to God, God would suprise her with lunch and she would eat gladly and not say "Thank you". She would return to her room hurt and broken, God would offer to comfort her/strengthen her/talk to her and be there throughtout the whole storm but she preferred bottling it up and crying everyday, This hurt God so badly. This one time, she returned to her Room and God was not there.freaking out She called him and He being God picked up her call. He told her He realised that She did not have money for rent so he was paying it for her, He told her he knew she was struggling at school and wanted to give her the wisdom. He told her He knows she is broken and wants to mend her heart but to do so, He would need the blood of Jesus to finish it. God told her He was going to sacrifice His only begotten son so That she can receive freedom!! She wept.

Where am i going with this?
God loves you so much that He chose to live in you! He wants to fellowship with you, He wants to help you get back on your feet! He wants to restore your joy , peace and every area of your Life! He is saying today that He will never forsake you so Stop forsaking Him!! talk to him daily, read his word and allow him to help you in all situations!! God loves us so much that The cross demonstrates this! He loves us so much that even when we are the worst of roommates, even when we neglect him and try kick him out! He will forever be God and Forgive us when we repent !! Neglect God nomore and allow Him to guide you and Reside in you! He knows what you need before you ask, He knows what your going through!!
He is a great God who continually showers us with his LOVE and with Blessings

Thank you for reading

<3 kamogelo

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