Women thou art great

Women are often taken for granted. They are often looked down on and seen as weak. They are often broken by those around them, made to feel insecure, ridiculed, controlled and unappreciated. So many things happen to women and society seems to find it hard to not scream all these negative things in our faces.

Media says we cant have it all. It says for a woman to be beautiful she needs to be in a specific form and hit a specific bar. Media uses separation and isolation to define beauty. It shouts "yellow bone" is the new standard and we now jump lower to reach that standard.
When society says skinny is the new sexy , we go all out to look just like that. We become bulimic, anorexic and starve ourselves so that all that "fat" can vanish. We spend so much time altering how we look , in order to fit in when God has in fact made us to stand out.

My question is, Is that all there is to women? Are we just a physical object that the world/media can mold into whatever it wants us to be? Are we a gallery for men to drool at, wondering which one of us to take home? Are we just the pretty face, the curves and the breast we sometimes flash so we can be noticed?

I truly believe there is more to women than what meets the eye. I believe that there is power incubated in this temple that the world is trying to distort and mislead us from seeing.
Do not get me wrong, I am not advocating for women to not work out, eat right, look pretty and all but what I am saying is that there is more to Us women than what we are being told or what we see.

There is something I truly love about God and its that He values women. He values us and has esteemed us so highly that He Compares women to the Holy spirit by calling both, The helper. It shows how much our guidance , willing hearts and assistance is needed. It shows that we have the capacity to assist, support and partner.

I was reading in the book of Proverbs the other day. Proverbs four speaks about Wisdom. Wisdom is called "she" and "her". God could have called wisdom "He" but he purposely chose "Her" for a reason. I am not saying women are givers of wisdom because God is but I am just trying to open your mind to greater mysteries that are still to unfold pertaining women.

This is what David says about wisdom

"If you seek her as silver, and search for her as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord"

Whats more amazing about this passage is that, after David speaks about Wisdom, he then speaks about another type of woman. A woman who is immoral, one who flatters with her words, who forsakes the companion of her youth and forgets the covenant of her God. David speaks about her house and her paths that lead to death.

From this passage, we can clearly see two types of women. The women we ought to be is the one God compares to His wisdom. One who is hidden in God so much that even when a man seeks her, he has to look for her as though he is seeking for silver and searching for a hidden treasure.

There is so much greatness in us women and we are loved and precious to God. We just need to stop looking at the worlds standard to define us and our capability . Instead we should look to God and live in His standard. I refuse to be labelled by this world. I refuse to let my past to define my worth and I refuse to let the worlds view of beauty and strength be a limiting factor in my life.

WOMEN THOU ART GREAT AND YOU OUGHT TO START SEEING YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND WHO GOD SAYS YOU ARE.... THE WORLD CAN WHISPER ALL IT WANTS ABOUT US BUT WE NEED TO STAND FIRM ON GODS WORD AND WHAT IT SAYS ABOUT US.


CONTINUE TO SEEK GOD AND BE HIDDEN HIM. IT IS IN HIM THAT YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF.

DEATH, BE NOT PROUD

I was just thinking the other day about how i have stopped writing. I was looking forward to sharing my thoughts and my days basically. I never thought my second blog this year would be about something so unfortunate. So many great things have been happening and my fingers were looking forward to having a workout on my keyboard but unfortunately, they had to do a workout that is undesirable but somehow healing.

This week i faced a tragedy that my heart never expected. A dear friend passed away. I remember when i got the text.... My heart was in disbelief. I somehow convinced myself that it was all just a dream, a dream i want to wake up from and never have again.  My heart became numb; i felt deoxygenated and somehow was in another world, a world that only functioned how i wanted it to. The pain was not so bad because i was somehow overwhelmed by a cloud of denial. Unfortunately this bubble of denial ruptured when my eyes beheld the very place where my friend had his last breath!

The view he had last is a view that paralyzed my mind. Tears expressed themselves and had no intention of holding themselves back! His image and his memories re-played themselves in my head and somehow were what was on my mind all week. Death is something one can never be prepared to face! If i was a soldier then i would know that this is a war that no one can ever be prepared to face, no matter how many times you train yourself! 

Death you have taken away a friend.

You have stolen a brother to a girl who saw him as more than a brother.

You have snatched a man who was changing the world with his personality and was surely going to impact the world in the greatest of ways if only you had given him a chance. 

Death you have stabbed our hearts so deeply that no coagulating agent can stop the bleeding.

Death you have added more wealth to the cemetery because a young man has rested before he could fully explore himself and be the change his heart desired.

The past few days have been just that! Days! They carried no emotions and I felt like I was going through them but in the form of a zombie! My heart has been pierced! Pierced so much that all I can do is cry because when death has taken, it does not return. It is not like repentance, you can’t stumble and return.

Today I woke up and needed the tightest of hugs, I wanted God himself to come in the physical and embrace me. I wanted Him to tell me it was going to be okay and that my friend will be returned! I wanted so much from Him and questions recited themselves before Him and Him being a great Father, He spoke to my heart..... He told me that all will be well. That the Holy Spirit within me will comfort and strengthen me. I had so many questions but then i remembered that His will is just that! His! 

After this short conversation with God, I felt strengthened. The pain did not cease but i know it will get better.  I know that my tears will continue flowing but after sorrow comes Joy. I know he(my friend) does not want us to cry all year without getting back on our feet again. I know he wants us to find peace again and to accept that he is no more!

If you are going through what I am going through, don’t turn to alcohol or anything to try silence the pain but rather turn to God! He will strengthen you and give you peace that surpasses all understanding. I will continue to celebrate the life of my friend and be grateful that I still have life. I will continue to laugh at his jokes that somehow always put a smile on my face, i will continue to treasure the phone calls we had to a point where i needed to remind him that i had to study, I will continue to treasure the greatness and the love you poured out to us all.

A person may leave us in the physical but the great times we had will forever be embedded onto our hearts.

Remain in God and He will bring about the healing your heart and mind need.

May your soul rest in Peace dear friend. We will forever love you and treasure you

I Dont want to let go...i Cant

I don’t want to let go….I cant

There she was, in the midst of confusion. She was taking a glance at the broken pieces of her heart that seemed to cut her. The more she refused to take it back to the ONLY person that can mend it, the more it cut deep into her.

She was drowning in a series of emotions and in flashes of great memories ,that letting him go seemed more difficult than surrendering it all to God. She was sharing hugs and her precious time with the person that somehow was so good with hurting her; you could actually wonder how he could do that and still live with himself.

God continually whispered in her ears but she refused to listen because the intensity of the love she felt for him seemed so great that moving away from it would be as drastic as losing 10KGs in 2 weeks.

“My child let him go…he won’t change as he keeps promising you”. Those were the words of a God that loved His daughter so dearly that He could not watch her drive her heart into a place of death where it will be shuttered into pieces and be like a valley of dry bones.

You see when God speaks, how we respond  is really up to us and our response determines the next few steps that our heartbeats will take.

“God I love Him, I can’t let go. He is my everything”. Words she uttered but really… can he be your everything? What does that even mean? When he leaves you, what will happen?

This lady gave a response that grieved the inner voice inside her ,that her own response made her burst into tears that know what needs to be done but somehow, decide not to do it.

She went on her kneels, and asked the very God that insisted she let go , to at least reconsider. She poured her heart out, not with hope for guidance from God but with how she wants him (guy) to love her and appreciate her better. When she stood up, she felt so empty as what just happened was not a dialogue but it was her dictating to the very God that spoke and things came into existence.

 Her mind was painted with words that said “God will give me a sign to stay with him” that she never even for a second listened to what the Potter had to say.

She had decided that God will have to conform to her will. She had decided that her ways are greater and that God should take a “short left” and follow her.

We often do this…. Some are still in denial but we normally do this. We know very well what we should do but somehow prefer what we want rather than what is good for us.

She knew very well that she should let go… Allowing herself to be constantly cheated on and broken was not what she wanted but it’s somehow the boat she found herself cruising in. She could get off the boat and swim her way to healing but she refused to… The swimming required being broken in God for it to occur.

How many times does God have to speak for us to listen? Do we really want to go as far as she did, getting severely broken before we could wake up, smell the coffee, pack our bags and be led by God? How much pain and misery and heartaches are we truly willing to endure or encounter? Do we want to get to a point where we stare at ourselves in the mirror and fail to recognize who we have become? Do we want to continue singing repentance and asking for strength yet keep going back to the places/things that broke us in the first place?

 Doing right the first time is always the best thing to do but then again, if we have not done right the first time, His grace is sufficient to correct us and teach us…..

HER STORY TO BE CONTINUED.

thank you for reading <3

kamo