Women thou art great

Women are often taken for granted. They are often looked down on and seen as weak. They are often broken by those around them, made to feel insecure, ridiculed, controlled and unappreciated. So many things happen to women and society seems to find it hard to not scream all these negative things in our faces.

Media says we cant have it all. It says for a woman to be beautiful she needs to be in a specific form and hit a specific bar. Media uses separation and isolation to define beauty. It shouts "yellow bone" is the new standard and we now jump lower to reach that standard.
When society says skinny is the new sexy , we go all out to look just like that. We become bulimic, anorexic and starve ourselves so that all that "fat" can vanish. We spend so much time altering how we look , in order to fit in when God has in fact made us to stand out.

My question is, Is that all there is to women? Are we just a physical object that the world/media can mold into whatever it wants us to be? Are we a gallery for men to drool at, wondering which one of us to take home? Are we just the pretty face, the curves and the breast we sometimes flash so we can be noticed?

I truly believe there is more to women than what meets the eye. I believe that there is power incubated in this temple that the world is trying to distort and mislead us from seeing.
Do not get me wrong, I am not advocating for women to not work out, eat right, look pretty and all but what I am saying is that there is more to Us women than what we are being told or what we see.

There is something I truly love about God and its that He values women. He values us and has esteemed us so highly that He Compares women to the Holy spirit by calling both, The helper. It shows how much our guidance , willing hearts and assistance is needed. It shows that we have the capacity to assist, support and partner.

I was reading in the book of Proverbs the other day. Proverbs four speaks about Wisdom. Wisdom is called "she" and "her". God could have called wisdom "He" but he purposely chose "Her" for a reason. I am not saying women are givers of wisdom because God is but I am just trying to open your mind to greater mysteries that are still to unfold pertaining women.

This is what David says about wisdom

"If you seek her as silver, and search for her as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord"

Whats more amazing about this passage is that, after David speaks about Wisdom, he then speaks about another type of woman. A woman who is immoral, one who flatters with her words, who forsakes the companion of her youth and forgets the covenant of her God. David speaks about her house and her paths that lead to death.

From this passage, we can clearly see two types of women. The women we ought to be is the one God compares to His wisdom. One who is hidden in God so much that even when a man seeks her, he has to look for her as though he is seeking for silver and searching for a hidden treasure.

There is so much greatness in us women and we are loved and precious to God. We just need to stop looking at the worlds standard to define us and our capability . Instead we should look to God and live in His standard. I refuse to be labelled by this world. I refuse to let my past to define my worth and I refuse to let the worlds view of beauty and strength be a limiting factor in my life.

WOMEN THOU ART GREAT AND YOU OUGHT TO START SEEING YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND WHO GOD SAYS YOU ARE.... THE WORLD CAN WHISPER ALL IT WANTS ABOUT US BUT WE NEED TO STAND FIRM ON GODS WORD AND WHAT IT SAYS ABOUT US.


CONTINUE TO SEEK GOD AND BE HIDDEN HIM. IT IS IN HIM THAT YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF.

DEATH, BE NOT PROUD

I was just thinking the other day about how i have stopped writing. I was looking forward to sharing my thoughts and my days basically. I never thought my second blog this year would be about something so unfortunate. So many great things have been happening and my fingers were looking forward to having a workout on my keyboard but unfortunately, they had to do a workout that is undesirable but somehow healing.

This week i faced a tragedy that my heart never expected. A dear friend passed away. I remember when i got the text.... My heart was in disbelief. I somehow convinced myself that it was all just a dream, a dream i want to wake up from and never have again.  My heart became numb; i felt deoxygenated and somehow was in another world, a world that only functioned how i wanted it to. The pain was not so bad because i was somehow overwhelmed by a cloud of denial. Unfortunately this bubble of denial ruptured when my eyes beheld the very place where my friend had his last breath!

The view he had last is a view that paralyzed my mind. Tears expressed themselves and had no intention of holding themselves back! His image and his memories re-played themselves in my head and somehow were what was on my mind all week. Death is something one can never be prepared to face! If i was a soldier then i would know that this is a war that no one can ever be prepared to face, no matter how many times you train yourself! 

Death you have taken away a friend.

You have stolen a brother to a girl who saw him as more than a brother.

You have snatched a man who was changing the world with his personality and was surely going to impact the world in the greatest of ways if only you had given him a chance. 

Death you have stabbed our hearts so deeply that no coagulating agent can stop the bleeding.

Death you have added more wealth to the cemetery because a young man has rested before he could fully explore himself and be the change his heart desired.

The past few days have been just that! Days! They carried no emotions and I felt like I was going through them but in the form of a zombie! My heart has been pierced! Pierced so much that all I can do is cry because when death has taken, it does not return. It is not like repentance, you can’t stumble and return.

Today I woke up and needed the tightest of hugs, I wanted God himself to come in the physical and embrace me. I wanted Him to tell me it was going to be okay and that my friend will be returned! I wanted so much from Him and questions recited themselves before Him and Him being a great Father, He spoke to my heart..... He told me that all will be well. That the Holy Spirit within me will comfort and strengthen me. I had so many questions but then i remembered that His will is just that! His! 

After this short conversation with God, I felt strengthened. The pain did not cease but i know it will get better.  I know that my tears will continue flowing but after sorrow comes Joy. I know he(my friend) does not want us to cry all year without getting back on our feet again. I know he wants us to find peace again and to accept that he is no more!

If you are going through what I am going through, don’t turn to alcohol or anything to try silence the pain but rather turn to God! He will strengthen you and give you peace that surpasses all understanding. I will continue to celebrate the life of my friend and be grateful that I still have life. I will continue to laugh at his jokes that somehow always put a smile on my face, i will continue to treasure the phone calls we had to a point where i needed to remind him that i had to study, I will continue to treasure the greatness and the love you poured out to us all.

A person may leave us in the physical but the great times we had will forever be embedded onto our hearts.

Remain in God and He will bring about the healing your heart and mind need.

May your soul rest in Peace dear friend. We will forever love you and treasure you

I Dont want to let go...i Cant

I don’t want to let go….I cant

There she was, in the midst of confusion. She was taking a glance at the broken pieces of her heart that seemed to cut her. The more she refused to take it back to the ONLY person that can mend it, the more it cut deep into her.

She was drowning in a series of emotions and in flashes of great memories ,that letting him go seemed more difficult than surrendering it all to God. She was sharing hugs and her precious time with the person that somehow was so good with hurting her; you could actually wonder how he could do that and still live with himself.

God continually whispered in her ears but she refused to listen because the intensity of the love she felt for him seemed so great that moving away from it would be as drastic as losing 10KGs in 2 weeks.

“My child let him go…he won’t change as he keeps promising you”. Those were the words of a God that loved His daughter so dearly that He could not watch her drive her heart into a place of death where it will be shuttered into pieces and be like a valley of dry bones.

You see when God speaks, how we respond  is really up to us and our response determines the next few steps that our heartbeats will take.

“God I love Him, I can’t let go. He is my everything”. Words she uttered but really… can he be your everything? What does that even mean? When he leaves you, what will happen?

This lady gave a response that grieved the inner voice inside her ,that her own response made her burst into tears that know what needs to be done but somehow, decide not to do it.

She went on her kneels, and asked the very God that insisted she let go , to at least reconsider. She poured her heart out, not with hope for guidance from God but with how she wants him (guy) to love her and appreciate her better. When she stood up, she felt so empty as what just happened was not a dialogue but it was her dictating to the very God that spoke and things came into existence.

 Her mind was painted with words that said “God will give me a sign to stay with him” that she never even for a second listened to what the Potter had to say.

She had decided that God will have to conform to her will. She had decided that her ways are greater and that God should take a “short left” and follow her.

We often do this…. Some are still in denial but we normally do this. We know very well what we should do but somehow prefer what we want rather than what is good for us.

She knew very well that she should let go… Allowing herself to be constantly cheated on and broken was not what she wanted but it’s somehow the boat she found herself cruising in. She could get off the boat and swim her way to healing but she refused to… The swimming required being broken in God for it to occur.

How many times does God have to speak for us to listen? Do we really want to go as far as she did, getting severely broken before we could wake up, smell the coffee, pack our bags and be led by God? How much pain and misery and heartaches are we truly willing to endure or encounter? Do we want to get to a point where we stare at ourselves in the mirror and fail to recognize who we have become? Do we want to continue singing repentance and asking for strength yet keep going back to the places/things that broke us in the first place?

 Doing right the first time is always the best thing to do but then again, if we have not done right the first time, His grace is sufficient to correct us and teach us…..

HER STORY TO BE CONTINUED.

thank you for reading <3

kamo

Re-arrange your make-up bag and include prayer!

Make up bag Check list

• ü  Eyebrow pencil
• ü  Mascara
• ü  Lip-gloss
• ü  Mac lipstick
• ü  FOUNDATION
• ü  Eyeliner
• ü  Concealer
• ü  Eye shadow

I looked at my make up check list and it somehow got me excited. It gets a lot of ladies excited, I mean you can look good for whatever occasion and i bet you will pick up so many followers with all that make up right? okay maybe not.

Well it’s great for women to look good and i for one have never been that Christian girl that does not advocate looking good and smelling good. You don’t have to spend thousands to look  good and its very important for a lady to practice good hygiene. When you look good , you feel good right?

Back to my checklist.......

I did a little research about one of the things in my make up bag checklist. Here is what i found out about foundation.

What is a foundation (for those not aware?)

Foundation is a skin colored makeup applied to the face to create an even, uniform color to the complexion, to cover flaws and, sometimes, to change the natural skin tone. Foundation applied to the body is generally referred to as "body painting.

When we apply this foundation it basically brings about the so called perfection many ladies are hungry for, but is that the foundation ladies need to really focus on? Is that foundation going to make you a stronger woman? Is it going to help you conquer?

I mean we often speak about getting “bae” and tying the knot but will this foundation we apply help keep our relationships together? Is it going to help us be better wives? Better mothers? Is it going to give us the strength to endure?

Don’t get me wrong i have nothing against using make-up and that is the reason I have a checklist I want to cover soon, but I have a problem with the fact that we often focus so much on the outside that we forget the inner being. Have you ever wondered why you can feel so “hot” yet feel so empty? We are busy trying to create perfection on the outside that we carry  on broken and empty inside.

I have gotten to realise that there is a certain FOUNDATION that we do not include into our make-up bags and this foundation is amongst some of the things that please God and that is PRAYER.

Prayer is a divine direct communication with God. You see there are so many reasons to pray and i can list a few

1.    To have a personal experience with God

2.    To empty our hearts unto God so He can empty himself in us

3.    To anchor us to God.

4.    Provides divine direction

5.    Strengthen our intimacy with God

6.    To transform us.

7.    Move us to another level of Faith

Unlike the natural foundation we use, Prayer wont cover your flaws but it will show them to you because who you are will drive you to take care of This that you are. The bible also says in 2 Corinthians 12:9-11New International Version (NIV)

⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong

 It makes no sense to cover our flaws with something that can easily be wiped off because what you cover someone else can uncover and use against you but when you put all in Gods hands,we know we are protected.

 Prayer unlike foundation does not only change your natural skin tone (your exterior) but it will transform you from the inside out. It will make you supernatural. Prayer is what creates that uniformity; YES!!! It brings about restoration and revives us.

We can try run away from this but it’s the truth that  we need to remind ourselves of. We can look beautiful all we want but we need to be prayerful women. I mean if you can’t trust God enough to open up to Him, How will you trust God if you are required to leave certain things behind?

If we focus so much on natural ways to do things, will those means sustain us? Will your beautiful make-up make you the woman God wants you to be? There is a saying that states that “You are the company you keep”, imagine the woman you would become if your company was God!!! There are so many qualities that can make us stronger and better women and all these qualities are in God. Qualities like forgiveness, Love, endurance, patience, humility, being gentle, Joy, kindness, Peace, Faithfulness and etc.

As we make our eyebrows, lipstick and foundation on fleek, let’s Make sure that our prayer life is on fleek.

Inner beauty is inside each and every one of us and the lack of confidence and acceptance has a way of moving us away from that. Investing only in outward beauty will forever leave us feeling like we are not beautiful enough, so put on that foundation called Prayer and watch your life, your confidence and the way you do things change for the best!

May we not only focus on looking good but also focus on BEING good.

Proverbs 31:30  Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

Proverbs 3:15   She is more precious than jewels, and nothing you desire can compare with her.

thank you for reading
<3kamo

You are amazing God. by Kierra Sheard

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creations revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

[Chorus:]
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You place the stars in the sky and You know them by name,
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable, awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim,
You are amazing God

[Verse 2:]
Who sees lightning bolts and tells them where they should go
Or sees heavenly store houses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

[Chorus]

Incomparable, unchangeable,
You've seen the depths of my heart and You love me the same,
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

[Chorus]

[Vamp:]
You are amazing God [5x]

God is constant.

Tonight i found myself on my knees looking at how great God is. He is the same yesterday, today and forever.

Let me tell you a little story.

There was once a little girl who had a tree in the forest. She often went there to just sit under its shadow and enjoy the fresh air. She would do her homework there and she often fell asleep there. Thankfully for her there were no wild animals there.
One day it happened that her parents bought her toys. Its an amazing thing right? Well lets wait and see.
She started playing with her toys and went to the tree once a week. It initially looked okay because what matters is that she went to the tree ( according to her). The less she went to her tree , the less she grew fond of it and the more she found it burdening for her to even go to the forest. She started dragging her feet whenever she had to go there and that day finally came, when  she stopped going to the forest.
Everything seemed okay and she was getting more and more toys. Like sand through the hour glass, time kept ticking and the seasons embraced this change.
More trees grew and the place now looked like a bush. There was just no way one would tell which tree was the one that the little girl loved.

One afternoon in summer she sat in her room and was feeling really hot. She felt so overwhelmed and started missing her tree. She cried everyday and felt like the tree had abandoned her but how can something that is STILL abandon you?
She asked herself questions and had no one to blame. That little destruction she got eventually pulled her away from something she held dear to her heart.
One beautiful morning, she went on a journey to the forest , initially she got lost until she saw this very HUGE tree, it was GREATER than them all and with its leaves it drew her closer and right there, she knew that is the tree she had always cherished.


See where i am going?

In life we often move away from God and we somehow don't see it because we will be so distracted and enjoying whatever is distracting us. Although that alarm within rings, we somehow ignore it until we feel overwhelmed, miserable, lonely and direction less. We then start asking ourselves questions and even accuse God of leaving us. Truth is, God never moved. He is a constant God. He is consistent and the same yesterday, today and forever.The problem here is not Gods presence but its us moving away from His presence. Like the little girl, we get so distracted that the very God we held dear to our heart is the very God we feel burdened to pray to, worship and even talk to.
When we remain IN God, we allow ourselves to be fully immersed in His presence that wherever we go, We allow Him to lead us. The one voice we should never shut out is the voice of God.

Today decide to do what is right and rekindle that relationship you had/have with God.If your emotions are telling you that you are beyond reappears, walk away from them and do what is right, they (the emotions) will catch up later and by that time, you will be way ahead.
God is right where you left Him and all He requires is for you to go back to His heart. God loves you and I and may we get to realize how loved we are by Him.

thank you for reading
<3 kamo

His Return to God.....

There he was.... trapped in strips and bits of sin. His shirt  had indulged in the taste of lust, his shoes had walked in the path he never thought he would walk... His pants were torn by the desires that clashed with his identity. He sat down and his mind took him back to that day.... that day when he was so fired up for God, it took him to that day when he had decided that the only woman he will look at will be his wife..... so what went wrong?

As he reflected and wrestled with his emotions , he found himself in that boat....in the boat he should not have been on. His eyes were enticed by a woman whose words were so poetic that her pursuing a medical profession seemed insane. It took him back to the first, second ,third and etc times his heart got broken.. It took him back to the days he started feeling burdened by what brought joy to his life (The will of God)......

He cried and felt ashamed. voices spoke from every angle.... the softest one said to him.... "Come near to me, i will heal you and help you". The louder voice said "get up, forget about your heartbreak and numb every emotion". he looked at the two and the most "realistic" one seemed easier to follow.... i mean why believe in the unseen when he could simply move on and forget it ever happened?

His hands found themselves embracing the energy lust seemed to be luring him on with, his hands held the very woman that somehow kept stabbing his heart... His eyes fixed themselves on this woman and forgot about the very God that loved him before the world knew him.
Looking at it, it looked like a young man who was blinded by love but as i looked deeper ,i realized that there is more to it.

With his pen he started writing down what he felt and these are a few words that escaped from his mind and laid down on his paper.

1. I am heartbroken
2. I have fear to love again
3. I have insecurities. Which woman will love me? i am not as handsome as "Quinton"
4. My confidence has been crashed
5. My relationship with God is...... lets say i messed up big time
6. I have trust issues.
7. I am just hurt! i want the pain to go away.


Looking at the list, one would say it was okay for him to go back to the woman he got on that boat with but why do we keep going back to the places got saved us from? why do we keep going back to where we are broken?

He didn't know what she was capable of when he saw her right? not really. When his eyes came across her, his smile said i want her but that little voice said, NO....She is not the woman for you.That still voice that spoke was the Holy spirit which plays a huge role in the life of a christian.

Often we find ourselves in situations where we decide to travel without God. We choose routes we know are not in line with who we are but that "excitement" we feel somehow shuts out the voice that knows best... Gods voice.

The sad reality is that when we have fallen , we are afraid to go back to the Father and rather swim in that problem... i mean if you were disobedient why go back?
The prodigal son went back to his father and this was God saying , i know you messed up but my grace is sufficient. Come back to me and i will fill you up again.

The thing is, you cant do it on your own. You need to go back to the Man that knitted every part of you in your mothers womb, so that He can recreate you and mend your heart. Going back to the place of captivity will only break you even more and make you feel like you are not worthy of Gods forgiveness, love, blessings and Time.  The insecurities, the pain and hurt will leave you but it wont happen over night....When God created the earth, it did not take a second so don't expect that quick fix but trust God in the process.

Your insecurities and low self esteem need God Himself! How and why? Well You have been made in His image and through Him, you will know your identity and know who you really are.. A wise man once said "You cant reflect what you do not behold" and this truth is what we need to grasp, digest and understand. You are peculiar, holy, more than a conqueror, loved and Simply out of this world! Literally.

It is going back to God with our little pieces and allowing Him to mend us that we become restored.
It is allowing God to speak to our hearts and lives that we fear not.
It is being in His presence that all chains are broken.
It is being in His presence that we remain in His presence.
It is knowing God that we are able to love again and not allow past hurts to dictate to us how our future love relationships will be.

This young man had forgotten his identity in the midst of trouble and being broken but we thank God that he is a God of second chances, restoration and revival. I trust the young man will be revived and so will you.
 


Thank you for reading
<3 kamo

listen to shana wilson- Give me you.     Its worth listening to.
 May God revive us